Is It Fair

I am in a world of darkness. Life is unfair. I have the gift of two children. It is not easy to be mother and wife. Some years back, I was facing grief with the loss of husband and being a single parent. After that, God had heard my prayers and granted me peace and family reunion. Last year, my beloved dog, Cebest was gone forever. And now I am feeling stressful and sad yet again by all these mess which people around me had brought upon. The children are the most innocent parties. With life like that, I cannot do much for the children. Whether I am around a not does not matter now.

Just thought that I can have some peace today as I was really tired of all the ongoing shit that occurred recently. A sore that was not healed and now another one come. I received another IM from Armeda. She said," I reported you." I never report you and you reported me. So I just reported you as well.

So much of my peace is being disturbed. My whole family is going to be broken now. Children's welfare is at stake. I cannot even protect myself, let alone children. What kind of father and what kind of husband can I and we rely on. 'Thanks to Armeda' for showing me the truth of everything.

I was harrass my Armeda for days. The story of Sapphire XXX Club can be published. It is so dramatic. The story has no ending yet. The sexual enjoyment of two parties have bring sufferings to the lives of innocent parties here -- myself, my children, and to my indirect friends and families who are worried about me. Sex is something wonderful for the two lovers and yet this woman, Armeda betray this lover, my husband. If she did not show me the photographs, I would never be as deeply hurt as just knowing that my husband might have some secrets with her. I must write another post about this woman and the club, it is not within the scope here for now.

After Armeda betrayed my husband to work for another club, Backstage, he was very sad. I wonder why. If there is nothing going on between the two of them, why should he be so sad and disappointed at the lost. We quarrel over that and I wanted to end my life as that is what he was years ago when he had another affair. This is because even though she betrayed him by going to another place, he still want to continue the business with her sister, Cindy -- which the latter assured him that both of them will always be truthful to Sapphire Club. They are just 'making use' of him! Armeda was with Backstage for barely a week or so. Within this period, she still contact my husband and even more so after Backstage closure.

Is there really anything on between Armeda and my husband? I am most positive but he always deny. But times and again she keep IM my husband. Then just recently a few days ago, I begin to receive her message more often. This is too much. The first was she said,"Hey, long time no see." and I never reply her. This is because she deleted me from her friend list. She did not want me to be her friends from the start and now she wanted to talk to me, that is very strange. And what's more, there is nothing for us to talk about. In addition, her accomplice, Howard also message me the same time,"hi, I just want to be your friend again..." Of course, I never response. I am not interested to talk to this unscrupulous people. And then he began to type,"Don't you want to know more about your husband and the DJ armeda?" My blood boils at these. But I did not reply them. I closed the message. I quarrel yet again with my husband for these. If there is really nothing going on between them, why should she come and pester me for all these nonsense? I asked my husband if Armeda IM him and he said NO. That is even more strange. Looking me up and not looking him up? The issue is not closed yet. I left the issue aside. A day or so later, I received yet another message from her, saying that I was kicked out of the club. I was puzzled. For what reasons and why? Again it was questionings and so on between me and my husband. And of cause there was no answer from him. He said he did not know and he did not talk to her at all. Our relationship is getting worse each day. Another day past and I was surprised again to receive her email message saying that she had given me a lists of inventories. I wondered what could that be. It was not one or two. It was a handful of inventories! Again, I asked my husband what could she have given me. He asked me to decline them. He again tell me he and armeda never talked. My blood was boiling. I was very agitated at the continual pestering by this woman though we are of no concern to each other.

I logged into my account and not long after I received Armeda IM. She said,"Hi Peace, Sorry hun, but I want to tell you that your husband is a jerk." I ask her why. Moments later I saw photographs of Armeda and my husband being intimate. There were 2 pictures of them with clothes on -- one dancing and another one kissing; and some more pictures of Armeda and my husband having SEX, both of them naked. I am shaking now. I am agitated and mad. My heart is pounding fast and hard. These are what I saw with Armeda and my husband both naked and having sex:
- dog style: Armeda down on all 4 limbs like a dog and my husband banging her from behind
- missionary style: my husband on top of Armeda both naked and my husband with tattoo on and a cross necklace
- girl power: my husband lying down and Armeda was siting on my husband with her back facing his
- Sitting position: my husband was sitting on a chair and Armeda sat on his lap, with her back facing my husband and revealing her breasts and face clearly

Sex is something so confidential and private. She showed me what my husband said to her. If they love each other, why is she doing this to him now, blackmail him and bringing such misery to my live. It is something that they enjoyed. I had never enjoyed in the first place. Suspecting of my husband prior to these was not so much of a blow as this, having to witness and see it with my own eyes what they are doing, and what he said. Is there a need to capture such scenes? There was obviously a plot, something already plan out to be used in the future and it was used now. Had I not seen these pictures, I would not have mention divorce to my husband. Should I or should I not. This is a broken family. Is my life worth living still? An innocent party who have had no fun with and now being reported. Is this a fair world? I do not care anymore, when a person is at the edge of the cliff, he either falls on stays.