Sapphire Club

It is hard to forgive as it is hard to forget. It is hard to forget those lies HE told me and it is hard to forget THOSE PHOTOS SHE shown me. It is hard to forget what HE had done TIME and AGAIN to me. As I had said I wanted to write about this wonderful drama about Sapphire XXX Club, I wrote these on that day I was in a rage. As I was tired, I did not manage to finish it. After a few days past, I do not wish to continue this story anymore. What is done cannot be undone. There is no point crying over spilled milk. I would rather clean up the floor now and let the family have a clean floor. I do not want the children to fall down on slippery floor. Although there are still stench of spilled milk left in the house, I will bear with it. I need to learn to bear with it. This is the last chance I allow such stench to happen. I believe time will clear away the stench.

So this is what I wrote about one week ago when I was full of anger:

I am too busy to play games. My husband told me about secondlife.com last year and he started playing since then. I was amazed at the graphics of secondlife. It was nice. I signed up for an account too. I do not play the game most of the time.

My husband was in the game most of the time. Soon I find that his first life seems to be replaced by secondlife. He did not share with me what he did in the game soon. He smile and laugh and seem to be engrossed and enjoyed every second of life in his secondlife. He had secondlife so much so that his plants were no more well taken care of. All the plants on his desk wilted and they died. All the flowering plants at the corridor of the house were dying too. That is a dramatic change in him. I was fast to notice the change.

I notice that he was often chatting with Armeda. He told me that Cindy is her sister. He told me that they had partnership in a club called Sapphire XXX Club, together with another person call Les, which seem to join in later, through Armeda. In this partnership, my husband is providing the land for free and Les contributed 10000L every month. My husband never had the money at all. Armeda took all the money. I thought that it was all about business and nothing much there. I was taken aback one day when I saw him without a shirt on, at Sapphire XXX Club. And most of the time I saw him at this place and he was dancing even, slow dance and pole dance, enjoying with escorts and hostesses.

Les's wife worked in the place and I also decided to go in and take a look. I began to be in the game

Everyday there were 3 events hosted at the club and with the best dressed male and female 200L each. That would contribute to paying 600L per day, not counting other costs. This is all accumulative and is all money. Who pays for all these? The answer is obvious. Events after events, votes were taken via IM and everything is dark. How do you know that the votes taken and the winner is fair? All winners and all people everyday at the club were the usual lot of people. They are easy money to earn just like that. Votes such as those at Dusty's Club is just and fair. I went to their club and they are wonderful people. Votes were done all clear at the board and there is no way to play tricks. There are just too many incidents and 'evidence' to see all the tricks after hanging out in the club for a some time.

I am not going to continue the story. But probably a bit about it though. After the incident, Les requested my husband to sell the land at Somdari to him at a price of 65000L, but he did not pay in full in January when he claimed he like the club so much, so much so that he still wanted to take over it. A few days later after he broke the news, he told my husband that he could not be online for a month and that he can only pay up only one month later, which is 1st March 2007. However, it is far overdue and until now he is yet to be seen online. Just after my husband agree to let him defer the payment and hold the land for him till March, the name ARMEDA came in again. He asked whether ARMEDA can build the club there while he is away for a month. Whatever, I hate to say anymore of such despicable things by this woman. Will Les shown up and fulfilled his promise for his land?

These people will continue to create new accounts to fool people and create 'drama' to seek for more money. By organizing a wedding, they got gifts, monetary gifts as well, which is easy money for them. Cindy, who is Armeda's sister, just got 2000L from my husband just like that!

I have given some thoughts and I have learned that we should be forgiving. I love my family and I will this time round, give him another chance. This is going to be the last chance ever. If he is going to make another mistake again, then I am not going to forgive him again. I do not want to see him flirting around with women and I do not want him to repeat the same thing again. If he is ever to be doing so, then I am not going to have anything to do with such man anymore. He is not worthy of my friendship, my love and it is not worth knowing such a man in my life. I do not want the children to have such an immoral and insensible father as well.

It is hard to forgive for someone who make mistakes, because flashes of memories just keep coming naturally each time you see this person, and each time he opened his mouth -- can you ever trust what he say? Though it is hard, I believe it is not impossible. This is provided he is willing to commit to the family and he is willing to change and willing not to repeat the same mistake again. How can I forgive him? Everybody make mistakes -- some big some small. I have to think of why people make mistakes and think of what are the bad points I have. By thinking so, it would be easier for me to forgive him, although it is really hard, really really hard, especially when it is not the first time. We always need to look at things from a positive angle. I just want to have peace. I hope that from this great obstacle that we encountered, our marriage can be strengthened.