Peace Diary: All In A Week

Life is Not A Bed of Roses, what is the reason for my living?

Any Sense and Sensibility?
Actions have to justify the words being said. If you say I am very busy and yet I have a lot of time to update my blogs, then you ought to think twice if you should trust me, trust my words. If you have so much dreams and aspirations, show that you can do it and show that you are working towards your dream and you are not biased against anybody -- regardless of babes or whores. If money is what you want, show me your money. Don't just talk, show me your action. However, I see your action is something else. I see your energy is not there. Your spirit is not there.

Pissed and No Peace
I am just very pissed off by some people who do not practiced or honoured what they say. Why should I care so much? Because I am not idling. I am stressed and all I am working is towards better parenting, better upbringing for my children, and ability to maintain a standard of living for my family. This alone sound easy, but in actual fact, it is not easy. It takes the co-operation of all people in the family to achieve this. What I want is not what I will get.

My Business
Last week, more opportunities at PayPerPost are available. I managed to have several posts, but these are mostly the posts in the range of $7-$10. I am not lucky to get the $50 nor $500 post yet. I wonder if I will ever get a chance of this -- perhaps with a better notebook or a better luck.

Octopus At Work
I did not enjoy last week. It was not a happy week. After Clara had sore eyes, Richard was next. After Richard, Ricsson was next, with on and off eyes red, after putting Clara's eyes medication. I have not brought him to the doctor. Hopefully tomorrow he can be better as it would be oral examination tomorrow.

Richard's Eyes
Richard's eyes took a long time to recover. On Saturday, he went to the Polyclinic to see doctor. It was such a terrible experience at the Polyclinic. It was such a long queue at every department. You have to move from one department to another. Upon arrival at approximately 9.10am, the whole duration at Woodlands Polyclinic took about 4 hours -- including seeing doctor and waiting time at Pharmacy to get medicines. Out of the 4 hours, only one minute was spent in the doctor's room. Yes, only one minute and I am not exaggerating. Can you imagine that? I saw everything and I saw what the doctor never did and what he only did. For more details, refer to Money Sick, which I am going to post on this matter there, right after this post.

Valerie Individual Home Intuition
Valerie's tuition was still going on last week and this week it will continue to be so. Her examination will start this week and her Maths exam will be next week. Last week, I had told her all about self-study and studying tips. Learning how to depend on herself and how she should study herself and not depending everything on teachers or tuition teacher only. In school, the teachers cannot have time to teach you everything. They have a whole class to cater to. At home, you cannot rely on tuition centers alone or tuition teachers alone too. They have only such a short duration of time with you. How much do you expect? If you want to see any progress, you need to have time, time to see results through time. I always believe in planning and gradual improvement to any things. To erect a building, it takes time as well. If you want a hasty piece of job, it is not going to produce a good job. You can see the building but the foundation might not be good and in the end, the building face a risk of collapsing anytime. This applies to study and in anything in life. However, I did not give up on Valerie. I had accepted the responsibility to teach her and it is my job to impart what I know, and to teach her how to study and what she does not know.

Germs Everywhere
I was fighting with the germs in the home. I hand sore throat and minor symptoms of sore eyes. My body is fighting everyday with the germs. Currently, I do not have any sore throat now nor sore eyes. I hope my immunity is going to be strong enough to resist anymore infection.

Getting A Balance
As mentioned earlier, this is not a good week. Germs in the house. Clara had other infection after her eyes. I had to played the role of a 'doctor', a nurse, a chef, a housekeeper, a maid, a mentor, a tutor, a cleaner, a wife, a business owner, a filial daughter, a responsible and good mother. These roles are classify under the job description of my job of a Housewife or Homemaker. How can I try to have excellence in all these areas? It can never be. But I try to get a balance of everything, and I cannot afford to be sick. Television programs and real life is very different. You see beautiful things in romance shows, you see no waiting time at the hospital in shows. In real life, there is no bed of roses. On the bed of roses are thorns.

Mother's Love
I endure, I persevere. I love my children, Ricsson and Clara. Cebest is my impossible wish now. My only 'pets' are my children now. To see them happy, I am happy. What they asked for, I try to give them. They asked for going to the playground tomorrow, Lantern Festival or Mid-Autumn Festival. They have been asking for it last week, and still yesterday. These are reasons for living. They are my inspiration.

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