Fate of Xiang Yu
Lots of things in my head and in my heart. My heart is very heavy, sinking, deeply immersed in the sea. It is such a great blow. The exterminator is no more coming every 3 months. They are all out to exterminate all the pests.
The day I wrote about Cats and Dogs, I received a phone call. I would talk about that later, when I had finished all my important tasks first. That is why I said I have so many things to do, all queuing up. I had so many things to do, but so little time and so little energy. How much can I do, How much can I hold on?
People say I am strong. People say I am calm and steady. People did not see what is behind. Now my life is transparent. I am not here to broadcast. I am not here to be a mockery nor be a model example of anything. I am no model at all.
I know what is pride, what is shame, what is ego and what is morality. So much words, so much vocabulary and definition, it is confusing. Everything just need a simple word, truth. I am speaking the truth, honesty from my heart. I do not add any spice to make 'my story', 'my life' more interesting. I ever said at Health Motivator that, if I always tell you all the beautiful things, how good and nice my life is, you ought to think the credibility of my blog. You ought to think whether what I said is true or false.
I write so many things. I write good and write bad. For writing the bad things, for saying the bad things, that applies to me. It might not happen to you. I am sharing my experience, my opinion, my thoughts. I NEVER INVITE anyone here, never said you must read my posts. I put it up, people can read, share information, and who knows, some people who have similar situation with me, will feel better (knowing that somewhere out there, there are similar people with similar thoughts).
If I say the cloud is no good, does it really mean the cloud is totally useless? I said so much bad things about him, does it mean that he is no good at all? I married him, he is not the best person in this world. He is not rich. He may have lots of flaws which make me upset. He also has his merits. If I scold my children, I canned my children, does it mean that I don't love my children?
I hate shopping. I still need to go shopping. I like something, does it mean that I buy something which I like? No. I can like something but I can end up buying something which is not nice or beautiful. There are so many things to be considered, not merely feeling and what people say about the products.
This is my Hero in the show, 楚汉骄雄. Justice and truth go hand in hand. For having this marriage and being a Catholic, and taking the marriage vow, we should adhere to our marriage partners. It is hard when there are so many differences between people. Real life is so much different from TV shows. Give and take -- forgive, endure, empathy, compassion and always try, try and try.
My Strength uprooted mountains, My spirit overstepped the world.
But the times are against me, And my horse can gallop no more.
Everything in this world works the same way, irrespective of your occupation and your nationality.
Last night, I slept very late again. Was hard to sleep too. The days where the sun shines are gone. More rain now and my lands are no longer fertile. My gardens withered OVERNIGHT. All my treasures, my five plots of lands have no flower now. Pop Pop Pop, the main fertilizers for most of my land are the major cause of the downfall. Now, this brand of fertilizer is just like Han Xin. Liu Bang is saying Goo Goo Ge Ge.
The day I wrote about Cats and Dogs, I received a phone call. I would talk about that later, when I had finished all my important tasks first. That is why I said I have so many things to do, all queuing up. I had so many things to do, but so little time and so little energy. How much can I do, How much can I hold on?
People say I am strong. People say I am calm and steady. People did not see what is behind. Now my life is transparent. I am not here to broadcast. I am not here to be a mockery nor be a model example of anything. I am no model at all.
I know what is pride, what is shame, what is ego and what is morality. So much words, so much vocabulary and definition, it is confusing. Everything just need a simple word, truth. I am speaking the truth, honesty from my heart. I do not add any spice to make 'my story', 'my life' more interesting. I ever said at Health Motivator that, if I always tell you all the beautiful things, how good and nice my life is, you ought to think the credibility of my blog. You ought to think whether what I said is true or false.
I write so many things. I write good and write bad. For writing the bad things, for saying the bad things, that applies to me. It might not happen to you. I am sharing my experience, my opinion, my thoughts. I NEVER INVITE anyone here, never said you must read my posts. I put it up, people can read, share information, and who knows, some people who have similar situation with me, will feel better (knowing that somewhere out there, there are similar people with similar thoughts).
If I say the cloud is no good, does it really mean the cloud is totally useless? I said so much bad things about him, does it mean that he is no good at all? I married him, he is not the best person in this world. He is not rich. He may have lots of flaws which make me upset. He also has his merits. If I scold my children, I canned my children, does it mean that I don't love my children?
I hate shopping. I still need to go shopping. I like something, does it mean that I buy something which I like? No. I can like something but I can end up buying something which is not nice or beautiful. There are so many things to be considered, not merely feeling and what people say about the products.
This is my Hero in the show, 楚汉骄雄. Justice and truth go hand in hand. For having this marriage and being a Catholic, and taking the marriage vow, we should adhere to our marriage partners. It is hard when there are so many differences between people. Real life is so much different from TV shows. Give and take -- forgive, endure, empathy, compassion and always try, try and try.
My Strength uprooted mountains, My spirit overstepped the world.
But the times are against me, And my horse can gallop no more.
Everything in this world works the same way, irrespective of your occupation and your nationality.
Last night, I slept very late again. Was hard to sleep too. The days where the sun shines are gone. More rain now and my lands are no longer fertile. My gardens withered OVERNIGHT. All my treasures, my five plots of lands have no flower now. Pop Pop Pop, the main fertilizers for most of my land are the major cause of the downfall. Now, this brand of fertilizer is just like Han Xin. Liu Bang is saying Goo Goo Ge Ge.
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home