Peace Diary: Wrong Navigation, The Pen Is Leading

Monday, February 18, 2008

Wrong Navigation, The Pen Is Leading

What's done cannot be undone. It is the will of God, a valuable lesson to be learned in Life. The dog is my life, my inspiration.

The Children -- the fruit parents produced
I was teaching Valerie. His father came to fetch him then. Clara came to me, I told her to open the door. She could not reach the keys. She came to me again. I did not want to be interrupted. I could go ahead and open the door, but sometimes, inspiration just stopped flowing. Sometimes ideas disappeared, what I wanted to tell or teach Valerie, I might forget. I told Clara,"Ask Papa to open the door." She went to the room. I only heard loud shout,"I also very busy lah!" I went to open the door myself.

What are Children? Who are Children? Who is Your Children?
I feel bad. We gave birth to two children, but can we give them the right life? We give life to them, but can we promise them happiness and true life? I am sad, sad that it is my fault indirectly, for bringing everything today. But I do not want to be sad, I want to try my best to help my children. It is painful to see them suffer under injustice and unrighteousness. I bring them here not for them to suffer. I bring them here for what? If I do bring them here and I do not want to love them and I do not want to care about them, why do I bring them here in the first place? It is nine months of discomfort, nine months of sacrifice -- jobs, relationships, money, health. After nine months, there is even more sacrifice and pain. Epidural, vagina pain, confinement, breast-feeding and childcare, and many followed... It is a lifelong process. Lifelong responsibility. All it takes is a sperm to win the race and a vaginal canal to allow the race to happen. An egg awaiting there patiently for the victorious sperm. A lifelong responsibility and commitment out of the FEW Minutes of FAME.

The Devil produced the The Devil's Son... Fruit of the Devil arisen
The father may not understand all these. The father who fails to open his eyes because Money is what is blocking THEIR views. But that is not a sin either. That is what the duty of husband is. They need to support the family. Put myself in his shoes. I want to earn more money so that the family can have comfort. Who he is today is what his parents taught. I seen his parents. He can be good, he is not a total DEVIL. It is all a matter of wrong choice and Blinded decision and wrong wisdom.

The PEN IS Mightier than The Heart and Brain??? Yes, it hurts, hurts the GIVER OF LIFE
Can I allowed such things to continue? Not that I am aware of it. It pains my heart. I am grieved. I am utterly broken if I see my children will one day be just another him or HIMS or HERS. I do not want to be in her shoes. She seems to be in a state of Dementia. Yet his son, in the 60s, a senior citizen, a big adult but a kid in her eyes, is still a sore in her heart. In her dementia mind, she still cannot stop worrying about him. Pathetic, and idiotic son and husband and father, who fails to open his eyes and fails to use his mind and heart to navigate, but using his Pen is more mighty than using his heart and mind!!!!

Know your Penis Functions and Penis Anatomy

The Pen Is what they used to Write Their Life
Do you know that it is far better to escape from reality than to accept reality? If I can choose to be a career woman, to be working outside, and left the household work and the parenting to the husband, I would want to switch role. I want to be man if the man is the one who bring in money and don't have to care anymore. How many such traditional man are there in this world -- man that don't share housework, man THAT (not who, but that) do not rule their life with a heart given to them, but rule their life with their penis navigator more than their heart navigator. No wonder they want a longer penis, the longer the penis, they look their head down, follow the direction the penis point!