Fly Like The Crane

Saw Sunrise this morning again, and it was birds I saw again.....

When you fall down yourself, you have to stand up yourself.
Injured, stabbed, demolished. My heart sank, squashed, squeezed badly. Yesterday I thought I want to learn to swim butterfly style. But got splashed with cold water, Richard said, "so old already still learn to swim butterfly, you think so easy har?" Sigh, haiz, I never said it was easy, but I want to learn. Nothing is easy in this world, but if you do nothing, you will not achieve anything.

Multi-purpose octopus
So many things to do, so many things getting to be done, I feel like an octopus, so busy with so many hands, and blurred like a sotong.

Time To adapt, Time to adjust
My thoughts seem to be scattered, cannot concentrate well, thinking how I should go about leading a better life.

What Is My Dream
This morning, I watched sunrise again. It was beautiful. The most amazing part was the sighting of a crane or heron/egret, I do not know the name, but it was so obvious -- my message was the crane is so big, so heavy, but it can fly so high. It was so incredible. I always see the crane (which I called it, but the real name perhaps should be called the Chinese Egret). During my childhood days, I asked my mother why the bird was there, and she answered, they had escaped from the bird park.


I could see the crane flying, a crane so big can fly/migrant from one place to another, this is the encouragement I get. I could see even the legs of the crane.

There's No Turning Back
Recently, I saw these birds(crane) again, at the piece of vacant land near while cycling. Today is my first time watching the crane flying in the sky, just in front of the sun. I saw the swift flying gracefully, the birds like myna and pigeon all flying gracefully, gliding, soaring and taking off, flying down, in all sort of ways. For once, I seem to understand the meaning of graceful, it is so like the birds in flight, so sweet, so relaxing, so swift like the swift. My heart is really burning, burning with so much passion, but don't know where to start, don't know how to start, scared to make the wrong move, or do the wrong things.

One Step at a time for now
Anyway, I have a lot of things to do. The house is still in a mess, so much things to do, a real headache. And everywhere prices going up. I am living with Fear, yes, I am living with fear. Nobody knows me better than myself...