House Blessing

Today I have a dream about house blessing. I cannot remember the details, but only some of it. KBS and my mother was in the dream. In one part of the dream, I was running out of the house so fast.. As I was running, I held on to my breathe and ran as fast as I can out of the building. While running, the inverted incense paper laid all over the floor. I wanted to avoid stepping on them, but cannot. Coming down from stairs, and running, I had to step on the inverted incense paper...

Outside the house, there seem to be a gathering first -- all squatting.... I saw KBS wearing light green and yellow, with a belt. In the dream, I saw a tree, the tree looked like coral tree. Later, we went onto the lorry. On the lorry, my mother was also there. Several other people whom I do not know was there. One of the woman, holding packets of Chinese Incense Offerings, accused my mother. I was very angry and I wanted to confront her.... My mother was sad over it. Cannot remember what happened later...

Next part of the dream was about Jesus. There was a gathering in a house. It was like the same group of people and I cannot remember the people. But in the dream, there was a discussion about Jesus. I cannot remember the exact questions asked, but roughly. The people answered the questions later on the bus. It seemed that the answers were rather 'stupid'. When my turn came, I said I was not ready yet. Then the next ladies also said they are not ready yet (after me). In the dream, I was thinking of what to say (How Jesus Save me). The discussion was in Chinese and everybody must say in Chinese....

This morning, I woke up.....to continue what I need to say... in Chinese...... and it is Jesus saved the lost sheep.....

Chinese Offerings

27 August 2010: This morning, I dreamt of myself holding some incense, and I actually 'bow' and put the burning incense in front of a shrine, a table with Chinese 'gods'. It was such a 'scary dream' because I saw unfamiliar faces....

Forgotten most of the dream and details, but it was a little girl in a house I still remember now. In this house where the little stays, there were two houses in this block of flats, facing each other. There was a stairway leading to this house.

Another woman, a very fair short-hair girl, adult, I dreamed of, walked with me in the dream.... somebody who was not very friendly towards me...... I really forgotten what this dream is all about, but the main thing is I am holding the Chinese Incense....which I had not held ANY in my lifetime....as a Catholic.

In between this dream, I woke up as Isaac cried... I accidentally touched my computer, and saw SPI site about Changi Barracks... so spooky...

The Nose Job

26 August 2010: Isaac fell down badly today. Two times.... first in the morning and later in the afternoon, at the door....

27 August 2010: Butterfly Lovers

Cross Path

Today I am so touched by the show, Butterfly Lovers.... Just as the show was being played (started at 10am, part 2), the sky changed at one point....

百家姓 (Bai Jia Xing)

I was awoken from a 'dangerous persecution'. I came down finally from a building called百家姓 building. I was at the first floor. There were two entrances to their offices, one on the right and one on the far end straight ahead, after I came down from the staircase. At the right hand corner end was an altar of Tua Pek Kong. The altar was pasted with newspapers and various pieces of white notes, very messy. The first floor of this building stood Chinese couples older than me talking outside the offices.

As soon as they saw me coming down from the building, and I was walking around wondering where was I.... Richard said he needed to go toilet, and I was left alone.... these two couples, the old man wearing long pants and long sleeve white shirt, started to gang up to 'persecute' me. They saw the cross on my neck. The man put cigarette butt (which he was smoking) onto my hand. I knew why they wanted to do it. I allowed them to do it. But they got worst, spreading more cigarette butt on me and started to got hold of my hands and feet, spinning me around.

I was so scared, and hoped that Richard would come out from the toilet faster to save me. Spin and spin, toss and toss, I had 'lost' sense of where I was.... so scared... until I shouted for help..... and I do not know was I awoke or was I still in the dream.... I closed my eyes and saw 'patterns' on my eyelid again... black and white..... so amazing 'patterns' that I do not know how to describe them. It consists of dots.

Before I came down from the building, it was some classes I hopped into. Clara seemed to be in the class. It seemed to be "Boon Lay Secondary School" but it was just a simple room, a simple shopping centre room with chairs (with foldable mini-side table for writing). Someone asked me,"Got Maternity Class later?" I said,"I am not the teacher, why ask me?" "Go and ask the teacher." I added....

I saw the teacher later on. I could not remember the details, but it seemed that there were some 'chaos' going on after that. Then I escaped, and that was how I was going down the stairs I supposed. In the dream, the most memorable part was the running down the stairs, jumping down each flight of stairs, as I was carrying Isaac. Richard was following behind suddenly. It was scary as the flight of stairs all have different gradient and different distances. It was dark. The place was 'virtually' like Farrer Road, but later as I arrived at the first floor, it was 'virtually' like Fu Lu Shou Complex.... I saw a Chinese Pink Peach...

Yesterday, my dream was about rabbits. There was one night this recent months where I dreamed of so many rabbits in it. So many so many, on the field, all over the place that I go. Yesterday, it was a rabbit that passed its feaces on my head, black round bits of feces being passed out on to my head, so real... it was at the second floor of a place....

Daughters-in-laws

The first part of the dream. My right hand was stained with Isaac's shit (feaces). I spread out my fingers, I saw my right hand in the dream, dirty. I was walking at a void deck. I came to a junction of the void deck. There were two pillars and a metal railing partition in this void deck. Sitting on the opposite side of me as I wanted to walk pass this two pillars partition at the void deck, I saw three daughters-in-law of the Toh's family. They were the number 2, 3 and 4 daughters-in-law... The one who saw me and seemed to have talked to me at this junction seem to be the 3rd one, the wife of the 3rd son, the one I had dreamed earlier on one day.... (the 3 of me dream that was so real...) Just as I was walking pass the partition and the 3rd daugher-in-law wanted to talk to me and I wanted to reply her, Isaac cried. I woke up from this part of the dream.

(As I was interrupted from the dream, carrying Isaac, I thought of the dream, recalling. The right hand was so obvious. Next, what were the women doing, sitting at the void deck circular table? They seemed to be folding incense paper. The Chinese usually fold their incense paper into 'boat-shaped' to represent 'money' if I am not wrong.)

It was around 2 am. After Isaac slept again, I put him beside me and we slept again. This time, surprisingly, the dream seemed to continue. What a 'realistic' dream yet again. How unusual this is .... first time dream of these women.

This time, I was sitting at a table with wooden stools on a grassland with Richard -- the type of Chinese Teashop's table and stools in olden days Chinese Teashop. It was a long path, with a raised platform just beside our table (on the grass). Richard sat opposite of me in such a way that I can see his face... in the dream, sometimes I can see myself and sometimes I am 'in me' (cannot see myself)... While sitting at the table, our feet was touching the ground. It was flooding later! My stool moved, and it became very unstable. The water level raised. Soon the waiter came to help. He came to carry the stool to the platform. Surprisingly, he was carrying the stool (together with me, who was sitting on the stool). Again, I saw the scene, and was in the 'scene'....ie watching and 'performing'...

Isaac woke up several times as usual. My dream was disturbed each time. However, today, all the dreams seemed to be the same 'theme', the same women appeared from the start to the end! It started with the 3 daughters-in-law mentioned above and ends with them also.... in particular the 4th one.

In this part of the dream, it was like a hotel we were at. The hotel is like Genting Hotel. "We" were there. A performance was going on. I am not interested to watch any performance. I stayed at one corner, far behind the performance area. Richard was beside me. My mother and sister seemed to be there as well. In this part of the dream, my tooth was so out of shape as I smile. It was my right canine tooth. In this dream, I can see the mirror image of my mouth, with the whole set of teeth displayed right in front of me (it is like another me in front of me, just like what I described above). The teeth was so big, so long. How can my teeth be so big and long? So amazingly unbelievable. But it is really what I saw. My right canine was about to drop. In the dream, it finally came off just before I am going to watch the performance (finally decided to watch after seeing one of the model walked past). I hold my big canine tooth, so long and big, so elongated. There was no blood. There was a gap left on my teeth, the 'hole' that was formed with the canine gone missing. My mother seemed to ask me to throw away the canine tooth. But I put them in my bag before I proceed to watch the performance at the front.

A 'scary' sight. 2 women were imitating something. On the left was a woman lying down 'imitating' something like the 'birth process'. I cannot remember what the woman on the right was doing. Perhaps I was too focused on the left. The colour of 'these things' are greenish or cyan... the woman 'give out' several 'balls' which I called 'bolus'. It was like machines, 'put put put' giving out bolus and bolus of baby skulls, 'thrown' to the far end, forming like a heap of them... Some children were surrounding this woman.

It seemed concurrently in some part of the hotel, in the rooms, something is happening which I cannot remember the full detail... something about the white jacket of the 4th daughter-in-law. The 4th daughter-in-law is pretty and charming among the rest. She got big eyes and I like her youngest son, very cute when he was in primary school age, the first time I saw him, I like him, cute boy. Now this boy is married.

In this 'hotel', a disagreement or some arguments took place, about dirtying the clothes or white jacket. Next, the 4th daughter-in-law discovered about it, very angry and brought it all the way to another part of the hotel. The white Jacket with the sleeve stained, was seemed to be displayed at a circular 'arena' of the hotel. Behind this place, there were rooms where the hotel staff were working. The 4th daughter-in-law shouted and made a fuss over this jacket but no one came to her assistance...

A surprise in the dream, a mediacorp artiste came up to me and gave me a hand-made 'card', a drawing paper coloured blue with what designs or words, I don't know because I had not opened nor read the card, but just received it. In the dream, I remembered who this artiste was, but now, there were two artiste in mind -- one fair one and one dark one. One fair one was a not so popular artiste, acted so long ago, but now no more of his shows. Not a main leading actor before, but unimportant ones. The next one, Richard said he looked like Andy Lau, but he did not look like Andy Lau to me. He is dark, squarish face, not so long Star, acted in the current Unriddle show. This person told me that I can call him, saying SMS and pointing on the paper/card numbers.... but I saw three 'deities', three Chinese 'deities'...........................................

What happens to the first and the fifth daughters-in-law? These dreams had spurred me to think....

Feng Shui

It was a billboard with the movie show "Eye With Him". Chicken or chicken wings were being 'thrown' as the guys 'performed' on top of the billboard as we stood on the 'grandstand' watching. Sometimes we do not know if the missed 'action' was in purpose or was it their real accidental unprofessionalism of the team. There were 2 or 3 guys on top of the billboard. There were simple machine lever systems that would catch hold of the chicken wings or some chicken parts...

I was awoken from a dream of sewing Chicken parts when Isaac cried. Someone, a woman was asking me to sold the skin of the chicken parts so as to join the two pieces of chicken together... This was a Chinese family in Hong Kong. It was a big house, all made of wood. It is a house with many rooms, with the doors closed. Someone was supposed to come here to meet the parents. I did not want to come, but somehow, came in.

Children Abduction

Suddenly, I seemed to be nowhere, but I saw a gal in black wanted to bring two children out of the house. Then the 'owner' said,"Last time, someone also do the same thing to 10 children with candies." Meaning to say that the person abducted 10 children with candies. The children never returned. They were scared that the same thing would happen and later these two kids would not return safely.

Strangely, as the 2 kids were being brought out in the streets, the woman knew that they were being followed...

The sequence was a bit confusing, but this place was a place with a lake. The building is seem old. It's downstairs being shopping centres, with escalators. At first, I wanted to go up the escalators. People were blocking in front of me. I was in a rush. I did not know if the escalators would go to the floor which I wanted to go. I tried to ask or look ahead, but soon, I ran down to see (faster way out).

I found out that that was the right way. After going down like 2 'floors', I came to the 'level' which I wanted to go (discover). It was level 7. The level was very old, it seems to be like Farrer Road flats, but it was not. It was a very old Hong Kong building. On the wall was a big wheel (The Buddhist wheel, but without the creature on it). After I saw this on the wall, I went down further one level, the final level that I wanted to go. It was surprisingly, different from level 7, though it was the same building. The floor map was different! On level 6, it was actually divided into 6a and 6b! Before I arrived at the mentioned house above, I saw FIRST lighted candles, red candles with long orange flames on the wall -- those type of Chinese praying plaques, with Chinese words inscribed on the metal red plaques. There were two of them. Next, the houses there as I walked there, consists of pointed flats -- there were 4 houses facing each other, with no corridors. On one side of the house, I saw a big 'cupboard' like doors, very very big doors with two panels, just like those in olden days Chinese shows... the place was so old and you can see dirt and even 'webs'.

Someone seem to have talk to me in this level. It was something about entry and the environment. The guy was telling me something and then asking me to look at the trees in the lake. True enough, the weather changes so fast and the trees in the lake downstairs were all frosting. Thick ice could be seen forming among the leaves. The lake area was all foggy or hazy -- typical cold look of the country (the look of a cold country, just like Genting Highlands).

At the grandstand, as we watch 'performance', I could see the leaves in the lake frosting also. The weather was changing so fast....

incomplete

1am 16 August 2010: I don't think I am going to complete what I had dreamed. Another day is gone. I had a tremendous day of surprise....Assumption of Mary at St Anthony Church. That already suffice.

Our Lady of Lourdes

It was the Statue of Mary I had dreamed of at the old Corporation Primary School. Now this school was relocated and it was Grace Orchard School. It was exactly this fence I was standing and peeking at the 'crowds' and 'performance' going on in the 'church'....

At the fence, I can see the Lady of Lourdes being worshipped. There were so many candles that were being lighted. Mary Statue was just on the stairways of the school (the place where children/students love to play, the few steps of stairs just in front of the school). I was hesitating whether a not to take any photograph of it. Standing and watching what was going on, looking around me, there were people watching also...

I walked away towards the direction of my home at Blk 169, but before I had walked even 100m, I turned back. This is because I heard names of the Chinese Characters being called in the compound. I wanted to learn about these people. It was a name that was so familiar to me, but I had forgotten now. I turned back and walked back to the fence.

This time, I saw 2 nuns, the picture of 2 nuns, so big, instead of the Statue of Mary. The photographs of the nuns were so big, and it was in black and white. Now, the candle flames were getting more and the place seemed very smoky. It was so smoky that I regretted that I had not taken any photograph earlier.

As I was watching the smoky air, something mysterious happened. I saw a 'transparent' or rather 'translucent' figure, a man in black and white. This man is a priest, a 'ang mo' (black hair, 'caucasian' priest). In the dream, I said,"hey, I just saw him moment ago, how come he is in there?" I wonder if he is alive or dead... meaning a ghost/spirit or a real person? His figure was so big.... Though he is not Damien (the priest who had sacrificed his life), but he was quite handsome, and in my memory now, as I was typing, it was him that I was thinking of -- God's Athlete -- the photograph of this priest that was hang at the Blessed Sacrament Church, the Sacred heart of Jesus and Mary.

In the surrounding of the school, as the candles were lighted and burning, grey dirty wax was lying all over the area. It was so much like a real dream and everything appearing real. The Chinese 'show' going on consists of colourful costumes. The people wore or dressed in orange, green, etc, but mainly these two colours I can remembered vividly. They were walking around, either rehearsing or performing -- very busy.

In another part of the dream, I was at my baptismal godmother's house. Her house was at Tiong Bahru and in the dream, she had done a valuation. Her eldest daughter had asked for a price of $350k but it was sold for $450k... I was at her house and saw the rooms of her house.... still as big.

But then, I was talking to my cousin, John. He showed me four stamps (rubber stamps) of different colours. I wanted to have them also, but he chopped on the paper and told me that 'like that see also can'. However, the result does not turned out to be good. I took hold of the rubber stamp and looked underneath. The four stamps contains stuff on PSLE, MOE (Ministry of Education), and two more I cannot think of now. This morning, I can still remember, but after all the chores it is clean forgotten. It was four 'departments', each of different colours, consisting of green, red, and some more.

The Seed of Life

17 May 2008 was my last visit to this place at Boon Lay. Strangely, I was dreaming of this place, exactly the same and I was standing at the fence, watching "MARY", the nuns and the Priest Damien...

Princess...

This morning I woke up at about 230am. Isaac cried and I had to rock him to sleep. Richard woke up to make milk for him later. After that he went back to sleep. Just after he went to sleep and I put Isaac on the bed, got myself to 'sleep' also, I heard KNOCKING SOUND at the door. It was vigorous knocking sound, just like that of "Michael Jackson" which happened on that particular night... This time, it was 3.07am. As soon as I heard the knocking sound, I looked at the computer for the time... what a 'scary moment', but soon, I was very 'awoken' and started searching for 'answers'.

So what I had seen earlier was correct... the white eyes -- relating to Tibetan Buddhism. Familiar name came to my mind and I searched for Princess Wencheng (文成公主) on Wikipedia. I never know that people actually worshipped her...

Reading the information on Wikipedia, I also learned about Dalai Lama, the meaning of the words and Jetsun Jamphel Ngawang Lobsang Yeshe Tenzin Gyatso, usually shortened to Tenzin Gyatso (born Lhamo Döndrub, 6 July 1935) is the 14th Dalai Lama, a spiritual leader revered among the people of Tibet...

Today is 七月初三, 12 August 2010... 8th day... the Jokhang Temple in Tibet as shown in the internet looks scary and imagined that I looked at them in the night, dark hours of the morning.... everybody was sleeping -- some green face, some with red painted face and so on... considering now the seventh month... the Hungry Ghosts Festival even!

However, what is there to fear when I believe in Jesus Christ, the Lord of the Lords, the King of the Kings and the Saviour of the 'saviours'. This knocking sound was that of female... the hand was much 'finer' but just as powerful since I can hear the knocking sound even in my room.

Three Jewels

Join the dots.... Number 6

Today is the chinese seventh month (10th August 2010) , 中元节, 七月初一, just one day after our National Day, the 45th birthday of Singapore which was yesterday... this is the day where the Chinese believes the ghost gates are opened... the hungry ghosts are released.

Just now while bringing Isaac back from the playground, we saw people burning incense, putting incense and burning their 'stuff' at the grasslands. Everywhere around the void deck especially, we could smell all the burning.

This morning, Isaac woke up, saying, "Baby, baby....." repeating the words many many times. The morning was so bright, with the sun shining brightly. But at around 8am, I discovered that the sky suddenly turned grey. My room was all dark. A few minutes prior to this, I had another unusual vision..... While I was carrying Isaac, rocking him, closing my eyes, I suddenly 'saw' a fiery white eye just in front of my brain... This eye was so different from the previous eyes that I saw. It was white and like paper!

I tried to recall what this eye was. It was quite familiar. Soon, I realized that it was very similar to the buddhism's wheel of life... the 'scary creature' just above the circle -- searching the wikipedia, I realized that the eye was very similiar to Padmasambhava(the bottom photograph at this page of wikipedia)...

The whole day, I felt so tired and sleepy.... today is the 6th day... the number 6.... is so special.... in association with our eyes as well....

From reading Human Bones I had learned that:

The eye sockets are shaped to fit the spherical eyeballs. The eyeballs need to be spherical, to be able to tilt up and down, and to turn from side to side, to look in any direction. In addition to these movements, the spherical shape of the eyeball allows it to roll in its socket while continuing to look straight forward. You cannot do that voluntarily, but there is a reflex that makes the eye roll in this way when the head is tilted, so as to keep the image in the same place on the retina. Six muscles connecting the eye socket to different points on the eyeball drive these movements.

The number six.... sixth sense or 第 六 感。。。and 六六大顺...，also 6=路= pathway..... 一路发....

White pigeon among the black and brown in front of Marsiling Blk 168, Woodlands st 11

Closer view of the White pigeon among the black and brown in front of Marsiling Blk 168, Woodlands st 11

The Big Feast

This morning I dreamed of Richard jogging... there were several other men wearing similar attire jogging also. At one spot, he was jogging in front of a white house. His shirt was white and he passed by the house. As he was passing by, I (standing downhill, separated from him at some distance), told him not to 'hao lian' (proud) else he might slip and fell...

In another scene of the dream, what I can remember now was the main 'thing'. It was a treat from the birthday boy at the restaurant. A meal treat to Richard and me. Richard was not very happy, seem jealous that it was a treat. Before we had the meal, I was excused for a while to the toilet which was opposite the restaurant. I need to cross the road.

It seemed to be raining, if I remember correctly, any way, this is not important. The more important part is I entered the toilet. This is the toilet at my mother's workplace! In this dream, the toilet is not the actual sight of the workplace's toilet, but in the dream, it was the toilet of my mother's workplace. There were a few cubicles in the toilet (ladies). I pushed the door to each of the cubicles and were disgusted with all the dirty toilet -- unflushed.... Finally I came to the last cubicle. It was the last. The toilet floor was lined with special 'web-like' or 'net-like' structures that covered the toilet floor. It was quite unsightly but I used it. I entered. Inside the cubicle was hanged clothes (left to dry). It was the clothes of my mother, and there were three pieces, two of which were very distinctive -- one crumpled hanging on the hanger, and the other, a white piece mesh-like... All the clothes were white. The crumpled one, I picked it up and put it back properly. Another piece, it seemed to have touched the toilet floor, stained a little yellow. I rearranged all the clothes and put at a proper place in the toilet, taking care not to dirty it as my mother would wear it later after work. In the toilet, I felt sorry for her as she had to work and used this dirty toilet.... an actual fact at her workplace. The actual sight of the workplace toilet is WORST than this that I had dreamed of.

Today is the seventh day of the month, 7.8.2010.... the mystery number 7. Talking about the big feast, it reminds me of this song "Come to the Feast" or "Table of Plenty"... This man, born on 1.1.22.... he said,"Mai! Mai! Ee nai ah buay jia, kor Ee nai seng jia!" (Teochew). Translated, it means, "No! Don't want! They have not eaten, let them eat first."

The St. Augustine Singers of Philadelphia- Table of Plenty

It was the seventh day after the operation.... this man lied on the hospital bed. The nurse could not handle him well... they said, "today he is very irritable". He was 'abnormal' to me. However, the hospital staff would not know 'this type of things'. They sent for different doctors and asked to perform different tests on him...

In the year 2009, when I went to hospital to stay for 11 days, I 'was at a wedding dinner' also..... My mother, Richard and the priest came to give me Holy Communion.... I did not receive it...

Let Me Ponder

Last night, Ricsson complained of Gastric Pain..... He came home at about 715pm.... Yesterday was Wednesday and today, Thursday, he is supposed to go for his school concert performance at Republic Polytechnic.....

Sigh....

This is a crazy world....

On Monday, Clara Tan called me.....

Haiz....

I was at the library and I had so much restraint talking as well....

Singapore, haiz, just WHAT CAN WE DO IN SINGAPORE???

And what are the SCHOOLS TEACHING PEOPLE?

Everyday, so many students and residents bypass this garden (Fu Shan Garden) and loiter in this garden. Look at this garden, how the people in this neighbourhood 'make use' of this garden....

Is this the end result of education? Is this the so called 'educated' Singapore where so much education is being stressed everyday, and so many TUITION CENTRES and education centres are being stationed everywhere in the neighbourhood and shopping centres?

Everywhere I go, railings, doors, walls, furniture (public) are being pasted with advertisements, drawn or written with words of hatred, vulgarities, and it is so unsightly and 'dirty'. Is this the clean and GREEN Singapore that the 'authority' has emphasized? And now, people have to resort to advertisements to EDUCATE Singapore, Singaporeans about filial piety, about keeping Singapore clean (the latest advertisements -- throwing litter in the bin)... this is so absurd....

Toto Tio Toto

Today I have another scary dream, very realistic... I dreamed of school, church, Boon Lay, Richard's relatives and spirits (souls)...............

It was a very vivid dream and just now at Shop and Save, I saw the brown butterfly and the white spotted pigeon again.....

In the dream, a long dream, don't know where to start, but I would write whatever come to my mind first. I saw a tree, it seemed to be golden, like a sculpture. I was so filled with surprise as I 'tour' the school. I was walking in the compound, and as I saw this tree, I stood at a certain angle away from the tree, trying to snap the whole tree and a good angle of it. As I placed my camera in the view of the tree, I moved myself backwards so that I could 'put' the whole tree in the camera's view. A lady walked past and talked to me. I could not remember the woman or what we had said, but it was about the tree.

Next, I walked 'up' the school. Before that, I was at the 'hall', something to do with administration or registration. Again, it was a woman who handled all these. I was queuing up in the hall before I came down to the tree. Now that everything is over, I walked up the slope. The slope seemed to be filled with planks and the pathway was scary, with holes. Seemed to be carrying Isaac. I was so scared to drop into the hole. Richard came to my rescue, guiding me and holding me, pulling me up as I walked the pathway, trying to go back to the 'hall' to see some details.

On the way, it seems to be Richard's relative's house there! It was Richard's father side of people in the dream.... in this school. Before I went up to the hall, I saw a photograph of the family of the 'third uncle' if I am not wrong -- the fat fat family, whom I had attended the baby's full month celebration sometime ago, and also the family whom the father had won many trophy for birds contest. This uncle of him (Richard) is so friendly and he loves birds. Of all the people in the family, I think I like to go this family best, as they are such amicable people, very fun-loving and sociable. It is so strange that I dreamed of them, and this is the first time I had dreamed of them....

At the hall, it was a school hall, at the upper deck, I was walking, so scared of heights... there was no fencing or walls to the ends and I was so scared that I might fall. The hall was so dusty too, and I was crawling.... really so scared to fall, but crawling to the edge to see what is beneath....

As I was dreaming, I actually 'dreamed' of myself 'dreaming' and I was sleeping beside the computer, and it was exactly like what is in present (at the present -- my computer beside me) and it was exactly the same computer I dreamed of! I was looking at the computer, and in the computer was WOMEN, all standing and 'grouping'. I was being 'dragged' and 'pasted' somewhere near the end, which was the front end (depending on how you look at it)... anyway, a woman was behind all these. She had put these... and it happens that I saw 3 'souls' of me in the computer with my name, full name in English, without my Christian name on the computer, just beside my image (3 souls/spirits, bluish in colour). As I was lying beside the computer, and looking at the computer, I accidentally pressed enter, and something strange happened. The most incredible thing happened!!! The 'souls' moved, the spirits in the computer moved!!!! It was moving in a forward manner, and the spirits actually moved out of the computer and it entered into me! I can feel the spirits, and I had the 'transcendental' feeling like I used to have, the day I had transcended. In the dream, the feeling is so real and is the same.... and I was so worried....

In another part of the dream, I was at Boon Lay Drive. The place just in front of my old flat, Blk 169, the circle at the road. I had alighted from a cab. I cannot remember who was with me, seemed like my mother. But the main thing is Cebest. I dreamed of Cebest!!!! (I had prayed this Sunday in the church, just this Sunday, to let me dream of "HOW IS CEBEST NOW" and I actually 'saw' him....) I put him on the pathway before I alight. There was a leash and I was so scared that he might dirty his feet as he walked around, since he is the one who alighted first.

As I alighted from the cab, I looked 'up' in the direction of another block of flats beside our flat, the Blk 183 side of flat. I saw PRIESTS AND FUNERALS going on. RITES were going on. I saw people (priests?? forgotten the exact details), but it was light blue robe they were wearing. On the robe was embroideries of DRAGONS, like those worn by those Chinese Emperors in Chinese Movies or Chinese films or serials. There were priests performing rites at the altar, at the hind end, while these light blue robes 'people' are having their funeral.... It was such a awe-inspiring moments....